Sitting in the Middle of A Life

 Here I am sitting in the middle of a life 

I never dreamed I would be knowing 

This soon, this early in my journey 

Not knowing quite how I got here.


Me, the person so bound & determined

To do things my heart desired & showed me.

The person who was going to the mountains

Me, the person who was going to do this or that.


But never this, not so soon, not now.

It hurts to know you've lost yourself

When you found someone you fell in love with.

And it hurts letting your dreams slip away.


Just like a balloon straying from your fingers

Slipping so gently you don't realize it

Until its gone and sailing across the blue sky

Just out of your grasp, fading so quickly.

 

And how do I find my dreams again?

Are they going to float above the clouds

Like the lost balloon or will I be able 

To grasp them once more out the blue. 

 

If I only knew why that I lost them

Then maybe I could start again

To live a life that   means something to me

Something more than just being here.

Susie - Feb. 1983

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